martha world

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" 'Martha, Martha,' the Lord answered, 'you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.'" Luke 10:38-42

How often do I get caught up in the things that "must" get done? How often do I feel that urgency to sit down with my Father, but I just can't right now because _________? Do I feel sometimes that I would love to just go sit and hear a sermon instead of working the nursery/coffee shop/front desk/greeting position? Yeah.....I have been there. I must have to admit, there was a period of time in my life that it was all about the work and not much about Him.
Now, I am not at all saying that I didn't love Him, because I did. What I am saying is that I didn't realize that in these times of "trying" , "working", "doing" I was not seeking. I was not sitting at His feet. I think it began to be about what others saw, what others thought. I was afraid if I didn't participate in every little thing that I was asked into or do everything that I saw needed done I would somehow feel inadequate. I have come to realize that there are times when it is ok, and even healthy, to say no. I have come to see that when I overextend myself and don't sit with my Dad, it becomes just busy work with no real benefit to anyone. 
Lord, I just ask that You teach me how to just sit with You. Just show me how to be a vessel for You and not a work horse for me. Lord open my eyes to see what You have before me and move me off the beaten path that I sometimes stumble upon.